bdsamm I find it amazing you are doing this by sheer willpower
I have had a few fails, but not with a male, which is the real goal. I'm a little bit at a loss to explain why I don't allow myself to masturbate. As far as it being amazing I think one thing is that perhaps women in general, and I in particular, need an object to get horny about, i.e. a specific individual or situation. I don't have an individual to get horny about at this time. Some situations do, going to the beach as naked as the law allows, watching the bed scene from Gerald's Game on youtube, etc. Plus I have my belt to help me when I need it, shower in a public place, take cold showers when needed, don't dress sexy, a few others.
bdsamm A guy can get off in a couple of minutes and get on with things.
I think there are critical differences that make it easier for women -- in certain situations. For girls without access to their lovers it must be very difficult. I never even attempted that, just used my hand or my favorite teddy.