Then at school im spending all day making sure my shirt doesnt come up when I sit or move or bend over, cuz the waste bands are like just above the pants line. I dont think anyone can really see it under my clothes but it feels like im wearing a diaper, and it makes me feel like I am walking funny or my hips are moving wierd or something. Its hard to explain. But like every time I think about it I start to get stiff and the whole thing keeps everything pointed down and back, so getting stiff doesnt work and doesnt feel very good either. I mean it doesnt hurt but yeah.
I had myself like half freaked out that by last period I was sure I wasnt actually going to be able to take it off but my mom let me even if i had to wait till she got home. Even then she wouldn't give me the key for it but unlocked it instead and then waited for me to give the whole belt bac to her when I got out of it. Its like she thinks im going to do something to it or break it if I am left alone with it?
I tried to talk to her about it, that it wasnt needed and uncomfortable and made me feel wierd and everything. But she just said that the guy who makes them said thats all normal and it takes a time to get used to it and break it in and blah blah blah.
After dinner they let me have my cell phone back for like the first time in forever but I dont even know if its worth it. I couldnt hardly get to sleep at all thinking about how I just have to do it all again tomorrow, so I got on here and thats why its such a late reply sorry.