carg Kudos for keep working on leaving behind that nasty experience, and turn towards something positive.
I think you are pretty unique on this forum: keeping yourself chaste, and having a chastity belt, but not using the belt for it. Have you ever felt you might need to use it as an extra deterrent in case the temptation gets too big?
Lets say I consider the belt a tool in my tool bag. I joined this forum on August 13, my posting is there in the old Introductions thread. That's when I started seriously trying to live a better lifestyle. My role models were the people like I sometimes mention from Liberty U and Brigham Young U whom oddly enough I will be seeing Saturday in Florida for the national meet (on TV in the US 10AM New York time on ESPN U). Those institutions encourage a chaste lifestyle (Liberty until recently even forbid R rated movies - the US designation for sexual content). These people seem to eschew belts and use their own character and beliefs (and some pressure from families no doubt) to stay chaste. That's my goal. So I need tools. One of my first was wearing a onesie to bed, or something like it, but as I believe you said of yourself I don't like to wear stuff to bed. So I went looking for other things, how I dress, how I act, showering openly in the locker room, no porn, sleeping with the door open (I'm a screamer so masturbation would be too obvious), not wearing sexy underwear or going without a bra, no drinking, no checking out my naked body in the mirror. So the belt is there, yes, but I almost consider wearing it to prevent sexual conduct, rather than for safety, to be a fail. I want on my own to keep myself clean so when I meet a guy I really want I can give him something that's worth giving away. I do do a little edging and the belt would help that but I should be able to sleep naked and behave myself. At least that's the goal.
