As I said, I've had other times too.
At the time, I wanted bottles of alcohol or money that was intended for everyday purchases.
but now it's different! on the one hand I'm sometimes allowed to get to the things, on the other hand I'm not at all interested in the things anymore! were false friends back then.
it's also different with the money for daily purchases, i can and have to get to it!
the things are no longer locked away and everything is ok!