Hi Everyone,
My name is Marleen and I am 37 years old. I live in The Netherlands. I was born as a male but since the age of 9 I was very interested in becoming a girl. I started with borrowing some clothes from my sister, and when I was around 12 I bought my first high heels from all my savings. I was so happy and had to wear them as often as I could. When I turned 17 I already had a small female wardrobe, wigs and some makeup. It felt so good to be a girl, but I never said anything to nobody. When I turned 18 I went to a store where you could be a girl for a day, they would do makeup, wigs etc. Right after that I got my name, Marleen. From that moment on I had a journey of being Marleen and being Remco. I was too afraid to tell anyone about this and I did not go out in public.
I think around 25 I met a lovely girl and she became a good friend. I told her about Marleen, she was so relaxed and helpfull that I fully trusted her to tell everything. From that moment everything went in high gear.
In a week, I went shopping as Marleen. I was afraid first, but It seemd nobody cared or noticed I was crossdressing.
Right after that I had some coaching and Introduced myself to my friends and relatives. Everybody liked Marleen and I had never a bad experience. I went to the hospital and had some conversations in becoming a girl. At that point I realised that I really would like to become a girl, but I also realised that Remco also has a life and is also very happy with himself. After a lot of thinking and coaching I have decided to be both.
So here I am, sometimes a girl sometimes a man. As time went in I wanted to feel more girly and did not like my gender when I am Marleen. After a while I ordered a chastity cage. As small as possible, so I could stuff it away and nobody would notice. I had a time lock for my keys. But I noticed that I could easily remove the cage without the key.
After a lot of research I have bought a My-Steel chastity belt. It is a special model, called transformation. It has the exact look and feel as a female belt. I choose the one with a string in the back.
At first it was nice, but after couple of hours I really hated the belt. I tried many things but It did not satisfy and I did not wear the belt anymore. After a lot of research I had found the problem and now I had adjusted the belt myself. At that point it fits better and I could wear it longer periods. When I am Marleen I really like to wear the belt, especially outside. It gave me a more secure feeling. But mostly I feel very good as I could not use and see my manly things there.
Now a couple of years later I told my best girlfriend about the belt. She immediately knew what it was and asked who has the keys. So I told about the time lock I use. She asked if I ever considered a keyholder. So maybe I do.
It is already a week now. That was the longest I did on the time lock.
I found this forum a while ago and have read a lot about all of you. Now I really can understand a lot of girls better here as I am also locked now.
As this is an introduction I would say that I am here as Marleen and would like to involve here as a girl.
Hope we speak all soon!
