Angelina welcome to the forum ๐
soon everyone is welcome here, just please take note that we are not a fetish forum and do not want to become one. if you respect that you are welcome ๐
I feel exactly the same way.
It's also a good time to work on your "fetish" do you like women who are more conservative? Or a more traditional woman or a girlfriend who is very sensitive to your affections? If so that is somewhat natural for a man and would be nice if you accepted a girl who had chastity... ๐
Do you have some repressed ego issues and are interested in criminal things? ๐คฎ Then please be honest with yourself about why that might be and reach out to a therapist.