I suppose I should update since I asked for advice a while back. I was unbelted for a while during quarantine, when my wife was slacking on keeping up on me. When she left me alone for a supply run, I took advantage of the chance for self-pleasure.
She never would have known, but I guess religious guilt is still in me. And I knew I’d be weak again. If I wasn’t weak, I wouldn’t need the belt. So I confessed and told her I’d accept whatever consequences she saw fit.
She was quite angry, at the betrayal of trust more than anything, and stood me in the corner while she calmed down and thought about this. I was in the corner nearly half an hour - not a long time for some of those here, but an eternity for me.
She called me out of the corner and talked to me calmly. She apologized for having been an inattentive key holder - in a way, she felt it was her fault for allowing me to be to freely unlocked. But she still had to know I would properly regret it, and prevent more self-misuse.
There was a certain amount of corporal punishment; I won’t go into the details. Then I was locked back up and she assured me she would be diligent going forward. She attached thigh bands to make sure of my cooperation. We’ve had thigh bands all along but she rarely uses them because she thinks they’re more kinky than effective, and she hates how I walk in public in them. But she wanted to punish me and said we’ll be keeping the thighbands locked until the end of lockdown, since we almost never leave the apartment anyway. (And the east coast isn’t opening up any time soon!)
I hate this, don’t get me wrong. But I’m grateful she didn’t just let it slide. The belt only has meaning to me because she requires it, and when she gets lazy I wonder what the point even is. I don’t think she’ll get that lazy again for a while!
