Jane
i wear the mysteel total with continuous back part with anus hole and urinal holes. very comfortable and / but also very safe.
everything else, i'm sorry, i don't know you well enough. which rules are good for you, your parents and yourself know best, so i wouldn't comment on this matter.
But you can't start from 0 to 100, you would need a certain amount of training time.
but i would still recommend thinking about whether this is really the solution to your problems. it can be part of the solution, but it can certainly make your problems disappear.