Sara2001 I think I'm adjusting fairly well. He's also been very understanding with everything. I'm wearing 24/7 now but tomorrow I have a very high stress hearing at the courthouse with all the metal detectors so he said I don't have to wear to work tomorrow. Eventually I will be wearing to that courthouse but my first day doing that will be on a more normal day and not a stressful one.
We are kind of playing openings by ear right now. He likes having access to me when we are together so if we are together then I don't wear the belt at night. When we are not together it's only off for supervised showers. He has a camera I have to have on so he can see I'm not going anything I'm not supposed to while cleaning. He is letting me out more than I probably need to be for cleaning. I'm not sure how long it's safe to go in between showing with the belt off but so far it's been every other day. I've seen people say once a week is enough but I'm worried about infection so... I don't know if I could go a week without cleaning out of the belt. Do you guys have thoughts on that?
As far as ending it, he has final say. I can go to him and tell him I want to not wear the belt anymore and my reasons but he gets to decide if I have to wear it or not. I honestly can't think of a good reason to end it unless I want to do things I'm not supposed to do. I think the belt is just my new way of life.
