Laura That sounds right for me. Your mom is wise, you haven't got sexual freedom after divorce
This line got me really thinking, especially in light of my recent attempts to reconcile the different elements of my own personality. There’s an inherent sort of sexism in “traditional” chastity, in that it’s primarily authority figures seeking to limit female sexuality. And I’ve absorbed part of that, you know? The fact I belted Goody and that I honestly kind of feel like it’s “right” is evidence of that. It’s a big difference between my two moms. My mother was hyper-fixated on sexuality, period, and was equally terrified of both men and women masturbating. And since, pre-transition, I was a bit of a mama’s boy (no surprise there), I picked up on some of that.
Mother-in-law, Goody’s mom, is more “traditional female” that way. She deep down believes that women should be controlled more closely than men, and that men need to do the controlling in marriages. (Hilariously, her husband is the farthest thing from controlling.) She approves of the idea of women in chastity belts and wishes she’d known of it sooner, and definitely would agree that a divorced woman should be denied sexual freedom and belted until she can find a man. Permanently, if need be. (Which, for Laura and Christine and Renita, may end up being the case!)
Ironically, ever since transitioning to female, I’ve absorbed more of that side of the equation and felt a need to be “controlled” that didn’t really exist when I was presenting as male. And once I was out of the belt, I readily adapted to belting Goody. And the idea of keeping her belted for the rest of her life is — well, I’m not committed to it, but it keeps popping up in my brain, you know?
I’m not sure about what all this means. But I think about it a lot.
