Jenna I think I have a decent understanding now of how things went so at least as far as I’m concerned there’s not much else to explain really. I mean that story was so long it would probably takes years to tease out what was true, half true and fiction.
Curious though, does Lilly read here? Her past sounds similar in some ways to my own
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Jenna belt did prevent unwanted sexual aggression by the creepy older men that I was regularly exposed to. It took me a long time to realize that maybe my mother did that to protect me
Maybe you want to start with your own story. It sounds euphemistic to speak of protection when your mother locked you in a belt before exposing you to creepy old men?
Im sorry but I can not trust you. Both your stories - first story about you and your cb and the second one with your fosterdaughter - look to me as a foiled porn.
There is a long way to trust you again.
I really can not say that you wrote porn like therapy. Sorry. I really can not trust that you are female. Might be your age can be real.
First of all, welcome back, Jenna. I am happy that you were able to come clean and join this community again with a greater commitment to honesty.
That said, I also feel like I need to agree with Kaja. While I do not think the experiences you are currently talking about sound like a pornographic story, I do think that this is still quite the extraordinary experience, and I hope you understand that after your last story turned out to be largely fabricated, I am reluctant to extend as much of a benefit of doubt to you as I usually do with other members. I also agree with people like Renita, Damien or Laura that your own history might be very interesting to hear. Like, this is a life you ran away from, yet you apparently found enough positives in the experience that you are willing to encourage another person to try it. Your thought processes on that would be highly appreciated.
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Did you ever consider getting professional help? You definitely would benefit from a good psychologist, maybe even psychiatrist.
What you did with your story is called projection and clear indication of your own serious mental problems which you quite obviously have not managed to get over yet.
Let me give a collective response here to @Damien @Kaja @Laura and @youdontknowme I totally get what you are saying and credibility takes time to rebuild, especially in my case. I am happy to discuss my time in the belt when I was younger, but that was over 20+ years ago. I am in my late 40's, older than what I said earlier. Like all women, and most men too, who doesn't want to be younger?
In any event I freely admit that being locked in a belt at a young age was not ideal by any measure. I never liked it but did eventually get used to it. Much later on I came to appreciate the fact that it very likely kept me safe from unwanted sexual encounters that I would have been powerless to stop. If the group here feels that part of my history is relevant than I am happy to expand.
In the case of Lilly, her own worst enemy is herself and she freely admits that belt has helped with preventing poor decision making. Getting to that step however was not easy. Wearing a chastity belt is not easy, having done so for like 4 years makes makes me qualified to discuss it and realize that it is an extreme measure, but in certain cases it may be the only thing that works. I focus on this because that is where I am at today.
curious I have considered it but have not done it yet. I do agree it may help and I should take seriously going into see a professional. My childhood growing into young adulthood was absolutely fucked up and for a whole lot more reasons than I care to get into here. These kinds of whacko quasi religious groups are still out there and if any girl is in one and can read this, run and never look back.
Welcome back. I appreciate your willingness to engage with everyone here again, in what feels like a more candid way. I am not entirely sure I buy the idea of a bar owner, putting a belt on their employee, who also lives with them, but there is "not sexual/fetish angle", despite being of mutually attracted genders, rings entirely true to me but will reserve judgement. I am curious to learn more about your experiences growing up and the situation with your current employee/friend (ward?)
Jenna If the group here feels that part of my history is relevant than I am happy to expand.
Were you raised FLDS? While not the only group with old men preying one young girls/women they are certainly one of the more prominent ones out west.
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Damien What were the occasions for your free time? Did they depend on your mother's mood or some part of your performance?
I did get free time, not a lot but some. I was never really into to masturbation, which is a good thing because there wasn't all that much time out of the belt. My mother's mood was always dour, pretty much every woman there was and it was not hard to see why as I look back on it.
I will get more into Lilly later on.
Bryan Thank you for welcoming me back, I will try to earn your trust. I don't agree entirely on your synopsis. Lilly moved in with me after she started working for me. Her reckless behavior continued, to a lesser degree but it continued nonetheless, and it was then that I proposed the belt. Getting her to wear it was far from simple of course and I will get into that when I have more time.
Bryan Were you raised FLDS? While not the only group with old men preying one young girls/women they are certainly one of the more prominent ones out west.
I would prefer not to get into specifics, but let's just say that group is philosophically very much aligned with the one that I was part of.
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Jenna any markings on the belt were filed off before I wore it.
However, since you are on the forum for a long time, you can classify it. I assume it was steel one.
Lock type? Rear style? Secondary shield?
Based on your age, it was in 90s and there were not too many manufacturers to choose from.
Jenna The people that helped me escape were able to help get the belt off
So, your parents refused to do it. May I ask you what did that people do?