Sara2001
Sara2001 Maybe I have overseeing it, but I would love to read more about your story. Since when are you belted, why are you belted, is it consensual, is it 24/7, how do you feel, what do you like, what do you dislike about your situation. Do you have other rules and how much influence do you have on decisions? Are you the only one in your family in this situation? It would be very nice if you could explain it a bit, so I can compare it with my situation and may get a better idea what to expect.
Of course. Iām happy to repeat a little from my intro!
Iām a trans woman in her 40s, married to a woman for fifteen years, and I have been locked for about three years. I anticipate that my belting will last the rest of my life, or at least my marriage.
My belting is sort of consensual; I am the only person Iāve ever known to wear a belt; and I have a say in decisions but my wife has the final word.
You and I actually have a lot in common, even as we are different in other ways.
I was raised in an extremely religious family. My parents heavily used guilt as a tool of control. Honestly, it was emotionally abusive. I was frequently told I would go to hell for my sins. And self-pleasure was a BIG one. I was guilted beyond all reason for every act of self-pleasure.
I left the church 20 years ago, but when they catch you early enough, they can damage you forever. I canāt self-pleasure anymore without massive guilt.
My wife and I for many years have maintained a taken-in-hand marriage. We strongly believe that in any hierarchy, one serves by being in charge and others serve by obeying. I suppose the idea of being an obedient wife stuck with me after I left the church. She handles much more of what others might call the traditional husband role.
My wife is the head of the household and I obey her. She has the right to use corporal punishment, and sometimes uses the cane to make her point. Honestly, I appreciate that. She can easily hit me with guilt harder than she intends, because I am so vulnerable to it. Even a small mistake crippled me with guilt for days. But when she responds to my mistakes with a caning, the punishment is over quickly and I feel nothing. I prefer it to guilt.
My wife has also more recently adopted corner time as a disciplinary method, and it works well to soothe my temper and rage. I could never do what you do, though. Five minutes is a long time in the corner for me, and I get ten if Iāve been really bad.
This does not mean I am a slave or a submissive. Only that she has the final word. I trust her to make decisions that are best for us both.
Many years ago, I remarked to her that I would have been better off wearing a chastity belt than being guilted for self-pleasure when I was younger. At least the belt would go away eventually. Guilt is with me forever. Of course, that wasnāt remotely an option; I had never heard of chastity growing up. But my wife remembered.
About a decade into our marriage, I was consumed with guilt over masturbation. I couldnāt stop myself but I couldnāt stop the guilt, either. I was crying myself to sleep at night. I asked my wife for help. Honestly, I expected she would just cane me for it or something! She asked me if I really meant it and would commit to her decision, and I said I would. She took a few days to think about it and told me I would have to wear a chastity belt. Even then she gave me a chance to back out, but I chose to go through with it. After a training period, I was locked permanently.
Iāve been belted ever since. I donāt always like it, but I accept it, and Iām more at peace. Sometimes I want it so badly I claw at my belt, but itās quite secure. Iām restricted 24/7 - I donāt always wear the belt, but she never lets me out of her sight when Iām unbelted unless itās to go to the gym. (Iām too shy to ever possibly even be a little bad in a public shower!)
Thankfully, my wife attends to my sexual needs enough to sate me. I have a stronger sex drive than her, so sometimes Iām frustrated, but I donāt feel ill-used. Still, sometimes the belt feels like purgatory and I resent that Iām denied what others freely get. But I donāt blame my wife.
I call myself reluctantly or unwillingly belted because it feels better to put the responsibility elsewhere. I choose to wear the belt. But I didnāt get to choose the guilt that drives me into it. I donāt have kids but I would never, ever impose this on anyone else. I believe to accept a belt is a fate chosen by women, to yield authority to someone who will care for them. And although I donāt always agree with her discipline, my wife cares for me very deeply.
