I can't take it I can't calm down I had to wake mum but she's not getting the key like wtf that's not ok I don't know what's going on I can't sleep
CAnt
She refused to give you the key?
We haven't slept - I'm angry but so conflicted. Unlocked now but I haven't taken it off - I don't know - like taking it off now means quitting I think- I don't trust myself.
Jen
@Jen, you know that although your philosophy and your use of the belt are very different from mine, I have always respected you and respect you.
If I have understood you correctly throughout these years, at night your mother kept the key. I even asked you about it a few months ago.
I suppose that today you woke up, you had certain needs and when you went to ask your mother for the key, she was reluctant to give it to you. It is right?
Do not blame yourself, what has happened to you is absolutely normal and similar things have happened to all of us, in the past I was very critical of your mother, but today she acted as any keyholder would have done.
I think these conflicts are normal, do not blame yourself.
Jen
Need to clear your thoughts? You are very strong. Take a break and drink some water, at least you'll be hydrated and the short walk might help you cool down. Keep your health up as the priority and find something to clear your thoughts, like reading, drawing, or even writing a personal diary. Talk to us if you need something, but finding another distraction can help you stop thinking about problems you have now. You can deal with it another time, I know you'll be stronger again and make it through this.
Sin points finger HA HARR!!
Yeah I'm ok - and better after that @Sin 
So I wore it to school - won't do it again. I planned never too at all but this morning I wanted to act up mostly to spite Mum - like to lash out. But also I didn't want that really. It was a weird day - no problems - just I felt timid all day.
I wish I'd never asked it was stupid - I hate that I'm glad she didn't let me. But yeah, glad I'm still completely chaste since 2021. I don't know what it means now - is it can't have the key till morning, or can't have the key if it's for the wrong reason. Just - like the idea of "can't have the key" - like I want to rebel but also it feels like that will be right sometimes.
Jen I wish I'd never asked it was stupid - I hate that I'm glad she didn't let me.
I think I know the situation, you are angry because your body had a need and you have been denied, and on the other hand your inner voice tells you that it was denied for your own good.
I can already tell you that at least my sister and I had those crises.
When I started writing on the forum I still had them, I have not had them for a long time.
Laura She refused to give you the key?
Yeah
James Isn't your agreement that she has to?
Yes too
Philip Why were the keys not given over when you asked.
I dunno - I was conflicted myself. It was before 5am.
Philip What happend to you get unlocked
A bit after 7. Normal time I get unlocked.
Philip and what is stopping you taking off the belt.
Was just my own thoughts then.
Ines If I have understood you correctly throughout these years, at night your mother kept the key. I even asked you about it a few months ago.
Yes that's it. Mum and Dad have the keys. I've been wearing every night. They always have the keys I just don't wear at daytime - put it on in the afternoon mostly.
Ines today she acted as any keyholder would have done.
I so want to argue about this but really you are right and mum was right
Jen I so want to argue about this but really you are right and mum was right
Jen, from my point of view, do not beat yourself up, the weird thing is that this only happened to you once, which is to make you proud.
If you check my old posts you will see that I woke up my mother because of a huge itch that in the end was almost more psychological than real.
Calm down, and think about whether your mother acted as she really should have, and if you think she overindulged or abused, talk to her.
A girl is not born with a chastity belt, and if it does not make you happier or does not make you feel fulfilled, then it is better to leave it.