when you want nothing more than getting out and throwing that thing in the bin?

It has been a couple of years now since my girlfriend, Ann, convinced me to get one. While it was first an occasional she put me into it, when I annoyed her and I always got rewarded for not fighting it or complaining, it became over time more and more part of my normal "underwear".

I am doing homeoffice this week and when she was at work yesterday, I grabbed the spare keys and took it off. (she told me where she kept it in case of an emergency.) I didn't think anything about it. When Ann came home she found the belt in the bathroom but didn't say anything. This morning she asked me, if I wanna put it back on again and I just nodded. She also convinced me to wear my thigh bands with it today. I really did not mind. But somehow my head just can't stop thinking about it and that I want nothing more than getting out and throw it in the bin. I looked for the spare keys already. But they are not at their usual spot or anywhere I can think off.

I want to wear it for her. And most of the time I don't mind or even enjoy wearing it. (I feel safe and protected in a weird way.) And then there times when this thing just drives me insane :s .

Do you have those moments as well? And if you do, does your head just can't stop focusing on it too?

    Zoe he told me where she kept it in case of an emergency

    Her fault. You had to call her and ask where it was in case of emergency

    Zoe But they are not at their usual spot or anywhere I can think off.

    She has learned the lesson

      Laura

      She has learned the lesson

      Thanks for the emotional support 🀣

      Zoe Do you have those moments as well? And if you do, does your head just can't stop focusing on it too?

      short answer: yes, i know and no it doesn't just stop, at least not when you think about it, that's why we always say to distract ourselves πŸ˜‰

      Thanks Angelina.

      I just cooked dinner for us and feel a bit better now. Usually I was able to cheat when I really wanted to get out. Today for the very first time after holding it in my hands and putting it on for the very first time it felt super real. Just this time I felt completely not being able to control it anymore.

      The thigh bands magnified the feeling even more. Ann got them to discipline me every time she caught me trying to find a way to work around my underwear.

      I always cross my legs when sitting. Every time I tried to this today, because it is such automatism for me, those stupid things reminded that me, what idiot I was yesterday. It also was super paranoid that everyone would be able to hear the clinging of the chains in my meetings today.

      Well, probably to day everything really got real :s

        Zoe

        please think about integrating a new emergency system, maybe one where you don't have as easy access to the keys as before, but there should be a way to do it

        • Zoe replied to this.

          Angelina please think about integrating a new emergency system, maybe one where you don't have as easy access to the keys as before, but there should be a way to do it

          Hi Angelina πŸ‘‹,

          The spare/emergency πŸ—οΈ will always stay in the flat and in an easy to reach place. It was implied that I would ask for it if I need it. Or if I need it without delay. It wasn't intended for the way used it. Just because I kept getting away with it...

          Now I really need to ask. Or be lucky finding it by accident. (Already turned almost everything upside down on Friday. But I know it is here and really easy to get to. Just where...? πŸ€”)

          If you have suggestions, please don't hold them back.

            Zoe wow. My girls carry emergency keys w them.

            Zoe

            I think you seem to have found a good system. I think for you a system is good where you can quickly reach the key (if necessary) but can't do it without her knowing

              Zoe She also convinced me to wear my thigh bands with it today

              As a punishment for previous behavior(taking the belt off)?

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                Renita As a punishment for previous behavior(taking the belt off)?

                ...without a valid reason and asking, yes!

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                  Angelina Best system we came up with is mom used one of those single use locks to attach my emergency key inside her desk. So it’s there if I really need it, but obvious I used it

                    @zoe do you have discord?

                    • Zoe replied to this.

                      Zoe ok it's ony my profile im karimm4246 add me if you like.

                        give me a bit time please. This week is already starting a bit on the wild side. πŸ™‚

                          Sasha to attach my emergency key inside her desk

                          What did she attach it to inside the desk?

                          Sasha

                          we have the key in my father's safe in the living room, if i have an emergency i quickly get the combination by message