Thanks Angelina.

I just cooked dinner for us and feel a bit better now. Usually I was able to cheat when I really wanted to get out. Today for the very first time after holding it in my hands and putting it on for the very first time it felt super real. Just this time I felt completely not being able to control it anymore.

The thigh bands magnified the feeling even more. Ann got them to discipline me every time she caught me trying to find a way to work around my underwear.

I always cross my legs when sitting. Every time I tried to this today, because it is such automatism for me, those stupid things reminded that me, what idiot I was yesterday. It also was super paranoid that everyone would be able to hear the clinging of the chains in my meetings today.

Well, probably to day everything really got real :s

    Zoe

    please think about integrating a new emergency system, maybe one where you don't have as easy access to the keys as before, but there should be a way to do it

    • Zoe replied to this.

        Angelina please think about integrating a new emergency system, maybe one where you don't have as easy access to the keys as before, but there should be a way to do it

        Hi Angelina 👋,

        The spare/emergency 🗝️ will always stay in the flat and in an easy to reach place. It was implied that I would ask for it if I need it. Or if I need it without delay. It wasn't intended for the way used it. Just because I kept getting away with it...

        Now I really need to ask. Or be lucky finding it by accident. (Already turned almost everything upside down on Friday. But I know it is here and really easy to get to. Just where...? 🤔)

        If you have suggestions, please don't hold them back.

            Zoe wow. My girls carry emergency keys w them.

              Zoe

              I think you seem to have found a good system. I think for you a system is good where you can quickly reach the key (if necessary) but can't do it without her knowing

                  Zoe She also convinced me to wear my thigh bands with it today

                  As a punishment for previous behavior(taking the belt off)?

                  • Zoe replied to this.

                      Renita As a punishment for previous behavior(taking the belt off)?

                      ...without a valid reason and asking, yes!

                      • Joh replied to this.

                          Angelina Best system we came up with is mom used one of those single use locks to attach my emergency key inside her desk. So it’s there if I really need it, but obvious I used it

                              @zoe do you have discord?

                              • Zoe replied to this.

                                Zoe ok it's ony my profile im karimm4246 add me if you like.

                                    give me a bit time please. This week is already starting a bit on the wild side. 🙂

                                      Sasha to attach my emergency key inside her desk

                                      What did she attach it to inside the desk?

                                        Sasha

                                        we have the key in my father's safe in the living room, if i have an emergency i quickly get the combination by message

                                          Zoe Do you have those moments as well? And if you do, does your head just can't stop focusing on it too?

                                          Sometimes I have such moments. Then I try to do something interesting to keep my mind occupied, or take a steam bath/sauna to relax.

                                            Zoe
                                            Other use an envelop in wich the Key is in. Where the envelop is closed wrote per hand something on it and take a picture. So you are able to get the Key but your bf will know it because the envelop is unique.

                                                Joh
                                                If you do this, keep the envelope in a plastic baggie. That way the signature doesn't get worn off after a few years of sliding around in your purse.

                                                • Joh replied to this.

                                                    MissBlossom Good advice but I was thinking that the envelop would be at home all the time.

                                                    Nowadays for outside would be another option possible. You could use a 3D printed unique case in which the key is. You can only get the key by breaking the case. You don't need your own printer. You can order it via internet.