confusion and pride at the same time

Angelina

i think it's impressive how well you're getting along in germany now, you really are an ideal example of successful integration 😃

Amira

Angelina you really are an ideal example of successful integration

thank you, I want to have the best life possible and when I am in a new society, I just have to adapt I guess.

Angelina

Amira

i am very happy to read this. may i ask a question. your stepfather adopted you (if i remember correctly), do you have a german passport now? I know it's a very personal question, but I'm just asking out of curiosity.

Amira

Sure you can ask. I don't have a German passport yet, but applied for it at the Landratsamt (I am absolutely not sure how to translate that, maybe rural district office?)

James

Amira For someone unsure of how to translate it you got it spot on Amira !

Angelina

Amira Sure you can ask. I don't have a German passport yet, but applied for it at the Landratsamt (I am absolutely not sure how to translate that, maybe rural district office?)

that sounds very good and thank you for your openness. i ask this because my girlfriend also only got a german passport after a few years. i don't know the translation either. 😂

Amira

i think you are really the only one. i always advocate that everything should be made easier, but of course there are countries where things are much worse and many things are only possible through contacts or money.

Amira

James For someone unsure of how to translate it you got it spot on

thank you 🙂

I actually may be the only person here who likes the German bureaucracy. Here you can be sure that when you apply for something at an authority that you will finally get either approval or get denied for some lawful reason, but you don't have to pay a bribe or something to get your things done.

Max9

Amira the downside is that the bureaucracy cam't cover all individual circumstances of all cases, that's why it does treat several people unfair and why it is contraproductive in several cases.

Dalila

This is a very inspiring story. @Amira I hope you can continue to be strong so you can feel proud.

Amira

Dalila I hope you can continue to be strong so you can feel proud.

THank you Dalila, I'll try as it gives me a good feeling 🙂

Amira

Amira When I say, that I want to get back to the old agreement, I have to wait at least one week for the first release. So it is made sure that the decision isn't made because of some kind of mood swing

Sorry for citing myself but... I yesterday asked for release on next Sunday because I would like to know if anything changed in my wish and ability to touch myself and of course because I have the urge to touch myself.

My Mom said that this of course will be done as we agreed on in November and that she thought I wouldn't last that long and she admires my strength about it and understands that I want that release next week, so I will get it.

Joh

Amira That is good.
Please let us know how it was for you and if you change something afterward.

Angelina

Amira

you have really held out for an extremely long time, that was over 2 months now. i think your mother can be really proud of you. 🙂

what happens after that? do you go back to the belt with or without regular breaks?

Jen

Amira tell me what to do and how to handle my feelings?

😆😆 that depends - do you know what you want?

Amira I would like to know if anything changed in my wish and ability to touch myself and of course because I have the urge to touch myself.

See that's two reasons - which was it really?🤔

So did you want to and the "know if anything changed" was just an excuse?
Our did you really worry you wouldn't be allowed?

You should probably stick to the occasional breaks. Like you'd know yourself if you thought staying chaste completely was important.
Like your description of Sunday - I'd feel disappointed for myself after that. You can want whatever you like in your life though so it's ok.

Amira

Joh Please let us know how it was for you and if you change something afterward.

I will.

Angelina you have really held out for an extremely long time, that was over 2 months now. i think your mother can be really proud of you. 🙂

what happens after that? do you go back to the belt with or without regular breaks?

She is really proud of me, but not only because of things related to my underwear 🙂

I'm not so sure yet how it's going to continue after Sunday.

Angelina

Amira I'm not so sure yet how it's going to continue after Sunday.

let us know, i am curious 🙂

Amira

I used the opportunity on Sunday thoroughly and not only just once. I had a very good time and a very much relaxing and long hot bath and after around four hours I heard the sound we all here know. "the click".

I was all jittery the whole evening and night and right now I am still feeling like I want to pleasure myself again today and tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. And at the same time I feel again like I did when I in November started the trying period of no releases: I feel like I'm not in charge of my body and feelings, but that my body and feelings are completely in charge of me. Maybe I should either get out of the belt completely with all the consequences of having less freedom or I better should try another period of no releases. I don't know what I best do.

Angelina

Maybe you can put some of your perspective of three years without the ability to touch yourself into it and tell me what to do and how to handle my feelings?
All others are free to tell me what they think of it as well of course ! 🙂

Angelina

Amira

i would love to and the funny thing is that exactly 3 years ago today was the day my training ended and i have been living completely chastely ever since. 😂

i can actually only understand your feelings up to a point, because i never had the choice, but i admire that you have such a mature view on the whole thing, because actually you are right, there are only these two options in the long run.

you started in november ', so you've done 3 months. maybe you can do it again, or extend it? talk to your mother again, that will help you 🙂

Dalila

Amira I feel the same way after a release. I am find that I am extra-sensitive for two days and then things start to calm down, but once I do calm down it is a very "deep" calm for at least a week. Then it starts to pick up again. So I look forward to the release and then to the deep calm. Maybe you have the same thing, but it sounds like you have difficulties with the calming down after the release.

It sounds like you enjoy the releases and you also want to have the control which means you need to limit it and this feels very difficult. Maybe you can try to find a release timing that gives you the best calm period. Having a longer time between releases might help. But I think 3 months is too long. Maybe try 3 weeks? What does your Mom say?

Aside, I had a release on Monday, so I am still in my calming-down phase 😅

Raquel

I would be embarrassed to ask, and I don't think they will make that offer to me voluntarily.

Amira

Raquel I would be embarrassed to ask, and I don't think they will make that offer to me voluntarily.

I don't think I understand what you mean 🙂

Raquel

Amira
I was talking about ask a break for... that... 😅

Amira

Angelina i would love to and the funny thing is that exactly 3 years ago today was the day my training ended and i have been living completely chastely ever since

then happy belated chastity birthday, Angelina!

Angelina you started in november ', so you've done 3 months. maybe you can do it again, or extend it? talk to your mother again, that will help you

We talked after my last break yesterday an we didn't come to a conclusion. I feel that it's more complicated to have breaks because this gives a bit of a feeling of becoming a lot of focused on the free days and I am not sure if I want that focus. So during the three months it became hard at some occasions, but overall I think it wasn't bad for me. I wasn't feeling like deciding about it, so I gave that decision away and we are back to the rule from November and will see how it's going to work out this time.

Jen Our did you really worry you wouldn't be allowed?

No, I wasn't worried about that at all.

Jen I'd feel disappointed for myself after that.

Yes, I felt a bit like that

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