sun I used to have one, sorta. She was half white, Christian, and American. Back in 2019, I was just like her except for the half white part. But since the beginning of the pandemic, I've gone on a journey rediscovering my identity and self. As a result, I don't think I can marry an American Christian anymore. The unfortunate thing is, I think it's harder to find a Chinese girl who wants a traditional marriage than a Christian girl who wants the same nowadays. Doesn't help that there aren't that many Asians where I live. Mainland China's become a very different place than it was decades ago, and I haven't been back in years.