Hi all 
So yeah the title I dunno I'm just like how long do I do this for - it's like I'm getting older but not growing up.
How much do you think about quitting?
"How long" is an interesting wording.. chastity time in hours, or nights, or years can't possibly be your motivation. You seem to be part of the privileged minority here who can not only contemplate but also implement her own chastity regime. What should it be this summer Jen?
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Jen Hey Jen.
Obv I think about breaking chastity every day due to intense frustration but the lock deals with that.
The far more serious problem I have is that the new high-functioning me is really up for sex. I know, however, that if I break chastity the positive changes I've made will collapse!! There will always be this tension for me. I just have to live with it.
So I like who I am with my belt and I do see progression, but yeah ofc I consider quitting. It is a bit of a battle sometimes! Whatever you decide, Jen, seek true happiness, not just trivial in-the-moment happiness, ...Something deep and cool and wonderful 
Damien it's winter here - and sunny and lovely actually
. I'm not like literally asking how long - I think you got that yeah?
I just don't know if I've wrapped myself in a cuddly blanket or a cage - feels like both.
Jonas the positive changes I've made
Don't know if I've actually done that
Jonas Obv I think about breaking chastity every day
I'm like every week - every second week
It's just sitting there - like I could just not put it on tonight - but that scares me too. I know I'll give in to it - I'll wear it. But I have thoughts - I'll just break it so I can't wear it - can't change my mind then! Urgh but that's just fantasy like I'm not gonna but it's nice to imagine.
Jonas Whatever you decide, Jen, seek true happiness, not just trivial in-the-moment happiness,
Yeah
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I think about quitting whenever I'm exhausted from housework or social activities and I think about how much easier hygiene would be without the belt.
It happens at least once every month or two, and I know it will happen more often with every passing year.
I have discussed this with my husband, and we both know the day will come when I need to start taking breaks, or switch to only wearing the belt on special occasions, or give it up entirely. We don't know when that will be, but until then we enjoy the life we have and after it happens we will still have great memories and we'll enjoy a slightly different life. Our hope is that it will be decades from now instead of years, but who knows?
MissBlossom 
think I hit reply 10 minutes ago - daydreaming about having a husband and chastity belts... and maybe about being with him properly
noJen I just don't know if I've wrapped myself in a cuddly blanket or a cage - feels like both.
Wow, this hit home. I absolutely understand this description and the conflict that lies underneath it.
Jen the positive changes I've made
Don't know if I've actually done that
Its much easier for me to look back on my life from my 50s and know what to do... I've got the cheat-sheet as it were!! From what I've read you've made incredible changes, but you've always had your doubts too. This is probably a good thing, means you're actively engaged in your life and thinking what you want from it! Sorry that some things (saving yourself for your life-partner) are incompatible with other things (going at it hell for leather).
Jen Jonas Obv I think about breaking chastity every day
I'm like every week - every second week
Jen It's just sitting there - like I could just not put it on tonight - but that scares me too. I know I'll give in to it - I'll wear it. But I have thoughts - I'll just break it so I can't wear it - can't change my mind then!
My belt is really solid and secure. Sometimes this is a huge comfort, sometimes it does make me a little panicy. When I have the belt off for cleaning there is obviously a chance to not put it back on so I tend to go into "robot" mode and do what has to be done without over-thinking things too much.
The lock is quite enough to see me through my daily idle thoughts of escape. I could purge all thoughts of escape if I wanted to, but generally speaking if I'm plagued with them I simply take this as a signal to increase belt security and my own personal commitment.
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Can't sleep was weird don't worry
I think about it now and then. I’m happy in life, doing well in school, great job, why not get out of this thing.
Then I look at a picture I keep on my desktop. Me on my motorcycle and my 4 “friends”. And I remember the path of absolute destruction we left behind us. How many I’d hurt along the way.
And those thoughts are gone, I’m happy where I am because of chastity
