Joh that's part of it - I could have been with a guy by now. And yeah I see friends hurt but they get over it.

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      Jen I found my finace by active searching. OK I am much older than you but my Change to finde someone e.g. in the Shopping mal is nearly Zero.
      Go Out and make Friends. See how they are. or use Special webpages.

        Jen Life is Not easy and Not everything gos right. It is Part of your development If you learn Out of your mistakes.
        Your belt will protect you for the big one.

          Jen I just don't know if I've wrapped myself in a cuddly blanket or a cage - feels like both.

          Wow, this hit home. I absolutely understand this description and the conflict that lies underneath it.

          Jen the positive changes I've made

          Don't know if I've actually done that

          Its much easier for me to look back on my life from my 50s and know what to do... I've got the cheat-sheet as it were!! From what I've read you've made incredible changes, but you've always had your doubts too. This is probably a good thing, means you're actively engaged in your life and thinking what you want from it! Sorry that some things (saving yourself for your life-partner) are incompatible with other things (going at it hell for leather).

          Jen Jonas Obv I think about breaking chastity every day

          I'm like every week - every second week

          Jen It's just sitting there - like I could just not put it on tonight - but that scares me too. I know I'll give in to it - I'll wear it. But I have thoughts - I'll just break it so I can't wear it - can't change my mind then!

          My belt is really solid and secure. Sometimes this is a huge comfort, sometimes it does make me a little panicy. When I have the belt off for cleaning there is obviously a chance to not put it back on so I tend to go into "robot" mode and do what has to be done without over-thinking things too much.

          The lock is quite enough to see me through my daily idle thoughts of escape. I could purge all thoughts of escape if I wanted to, but generally speaking if I'm plagued with them I simply take this as a signal to increase belt security and my own personal commitment.

                  Can't sleep was weird don't worry

                  I think about it now and then. I’m happy in life, doing well in school, great job, why not get out of this thing.
                  Then I look at a picture I keep on my desktop. Me on my motorcycle and my 4 “friends”. And I remember the path of absolute destruction we left behind us. How many I’d hurt along the way.
                  And those thoughts are gone, I’m happy where I am because of chastity

                    Jen I'll just break it so I can't wear it

                    Why not lock up a good friend with your belt and send her home, then it's gone and serves a good cause. I always thought you should be on the keyholder side of things.

                        Damien Why not lock up a good friend with your belt and send her home, then it's gone and serves a good cause.

                        😄

                          Jen see, you love your belt. Thought experiment completed successfully.

                          .........make her buy same belt and exchange keys?

                              Damien n see, you love your belt.

                              Damien .........make her buy same belt and exchange keys?

                              Pure artistry. I love watching a master at work!

                                    Damien Jen just needs to wear for longer periods. Increased security = decreased anxiety imo. It's kind of you to offer though! 😉

                                        Jonas Jen just needs to wear for longer periods. Increased security = decreased anxiety imo.

                                        Jen I dunno I'm just like how long do I do this for - it's like I'm getting older but not growing up.

                                        It is very rare for me to advocate any compulsion to wear a chastity belt, but I have a strong impression that your dilemma really results from too loose rules of its wearing. On the one hand, you want to wear the belt, on the other, it causes you emotional discomfort. Because you can give up wearing it very easily, it's hard for you to overcome the frustration that comes with wearing a belt. Considering your current family situation (living with your parents), I think you should talk to them to have them look after you more for a few months (ideally wearing a belt 24/7 during this time). If stricter discipline doesn't help and you still have constant dilemmas, just give up the belt and wait until you have a permanent partner / husband. Then you can try to go back to wearing it.

                                              Andrew

                                              I would actually agree with you, but I remember how @Jen's situation started and that at least her mother could easily abuse this power. Generally you're not wrong though, I think @Jen's vacillations are a result of her opportunity giving up easily

                                                  Angelina but I remember how @Jen's situation started and that at least her mother could easily abuse this power.

                                                  On the other hand, it would definitely make for a stricter regime and put an end to the vacillating. If it were at Jen's request that could make all the difference.

                                                  Anyways, I'm wondering if it's hygiene that's putting off greater wear time here. Certainly that's what delayed me. Unless I was just stalling. Could have been a bit of that too.

                                                      Angelina but I remember how @Jen's situation started and that at least her mother could easily abuse this power.

                                                      The risk of abuse of power will always exist in a relationship where a chastity belt is used. However, I don't think that's likely in @Jen's case, given how she was able to defend herself against her mother's imposition of the belt.

                                                          Jonas Anyways, I'm wondering if it's hygiene that's putting off greater wear time here.

                                                          I like that it feels tight on me but I think 24x7 would have to be much looser.

                                                          Andrew Because you can give up wearing it very easily, it's hard for you to overcome the frustration that comes with wearing a belt.

                                                          No I'm ok with the frustration. It's more than that it's like two things it's access to my own body - part of me! - it's off limits. Like it's hard to not feel like I'm less than everyone because of it.
                                                          And also just being with a guy - I want to know what it's like - like it's this experience people have and I don't - I want to know. It'd be easier if everyone was in chastity.