Zoe Thanks for your replies. I really really needed that today.
I hardly slept the last few days. It is freaking weird. Just a tiny detail has changed.
Oh no! Losing access to the key isn't a tiny detail, it's massive!! ð And it's only when you actually want the belt off, (for whatever reason), that the penny finally drops: I. CANT. TAKE. THIS. BELT. OFF.
You're right, it's powerful stuff, chastity. The realisation can hit like a freight train, ...but, in the end, being out of control of the belt just another thing you get used to.
We talked about why I took it off. But there was no real good reason. I just felt like it.
I'm not a keyholder but if I were I'd treat this as a clear case of fighting the belt. Too many of these in a row and chastity becomes a game and then becomes a memory. Thigh bands were a good response, sorry to say.
On the upside, they pink too and look cute on me ðĪðĪĢ)
Yay! That's the spirit! ð
I love your attitude and hope one day I will be this strong as well.
I can really see your (currently) conflicted feelings on chastity in your posts:
Zoe ...as screwed up (as) it is that I am wearing metal underwear...
I am just super embarrassed that I am wearing one. ðĒ
ðĶ I would die a thousand death.
Vs...
My girlfriend would probably tell you that I am a handful for any human being belted or unbelted ðĪĢ
It means no begging, blackmailing, tantrums
I used to try to push my girlfriend whenever I felt the urge. Getting grumpy and moody when she wasn't in the mood.
I hope this resolves one way or the other sooner rather than later, so that if you proceed you can get to the really good bit where you are happy and proud to wear your belt and you can allow the people who you want to know the real you to know.
This may seem impossibly difficult because of the nature of the restriction: You aren't just telling others that you have metal underwear, you're also revealing that you are often thinking about, or acting on sexual impulses. This is a lot of information to give away.
Thankfully there are two things in your favour: 1) Kindly friends and family will always think the best of you no matter what and 2) People are generally only mildly interested in other's lives. In my experience there's generally a bit of a reaction, then they just accept the information and forget about it.
In general terms; it seems to me that chastity works very well both for people who want to avoid sex and for people who are highly sexual. The latter seems to be a contradiction until, well, until you're in that situation.
If your sex drive is different from your partner (or if you are just a total horndog) a chastity belt can even things up... while making the wearer feel like they are constantly having sex and never feeling rejected, neglected or dejected.
The internal monologue might go something like: "I want sex right now!!, [stamps foot!] ...but I've been given this wonderfully expensive belt to help me to wait until a more appropriate time. I feel safe, secure and looked after. Someone on the planet understands me, knows what I need and cares enough to give it to me".
My mum would probably be proud and jealous of Ann for getting me into that fancy underwear
If you are sure this is true, then you should tell her! Let her feel proud and jealous/respectful of Ann's idea...
If you do want to move forward... Forget about that key, that's not your business! Concentrate on welding your chastity belt into your self-image! Chastity rocks! It's cool. It's of constant interest. It's better than getting all the (too much) sex you want. If a chastity belt is a good fit, then wear it with pride!
