Found out that @OctaviaSunwilds still has her Discord account. It looks like she has blocked me which I cannot understand after all we went through. And no I did not bombard her with messages that might give her a reason to do that. When she got her new real life kh I asked if it was goodbye now? Her last message was: "We can still talk" and that was it. We know she has DID so maybe her brain works in a way difficult for others to follow. Why dispose contacts?

I can only hope she will be happy now. Maybe one day we will hear of her again, maybe not.

@OctaviaSunwilds if you read this let us know how you are doing. There are more people on this forum concerned about you.

    Padre That honestly sounds a lot like an extremely controlling/abusive relationship she rushed into, where this other person has immense power.
    I hope Iā€™m very wrong though of course

        Sasha
        I am afraid for that. There is nothing we can do. It is her life and she has to deal with it one way or the other. Hopefully she can call for help locally (police) if needed.

        An other scenario could be knowing she is 19 maybe she easily discard her contacts because she does not see the value. Or one of her five personalities decided to do so. Or her new kh doesn't like her to communicate with others and blocks them. Or she so much ashamed for what happened to her that she doesn't want to the world to know. Then it is better she tries to seek for help. It is all speculation.

        Let's hope for the best for her.

            Padre

            i think the problem is that because she is a bit mentally unstable, she can be easily manipulated and if someone doesn't mean her well, she might not realise it. i really hope we are wrong

                Angelina
                True. We can only wait and see if she will tell us what is happening and hoop for the best.

                  Seems @OctaviaSunwilds didn't block me but just deleted our friendship connection on Discord. Maybe she wanted to hide our conversation for her kh. Feels less bad than being blocked. I have sent a friendship request. Maybe she will accept it one day. We'll see. Now we have to wait until we hear something if that will ever happen. Hopefully she will tell what happened here on this forum one day.

                    Padre

                    let's hope for the best, if she accepts your friend request and writes you something, please let me know if she's okay. no detail, just if she's okay

                        a bunch of life stuff happened, ive moved out and i started a new dynamic with my roommate kind of recently, and thats going way better

                          OctaviaSunwilds
                          Glad to hear you are okay. I was really worried about you also because contact was lost.

                            OctaviaSunwilds im fine guys im just not online as much, lol

                            nice to read that you are doing well, i would also like to read how your new dynamic is developing with your key holder, but that is your decision šŸ™‚

                              we have a points dynamic, pretty much the idea is i can do things to earn points (chores, self work kind of things, etc) and when i reach 100 points i can unlock to have a bit of me time for an hour. i dont think its all that balanced since it takes me a bit to get to 100, since every task only gives me 1-3 points and i can only do so many in a day, but its much nicer then my last one

                              the rest of the alters are kind of on board. they cant just unlock whenever they feel since he has all the keys but everyone has their own safeword in case they get too uncomfortable, its just a rule that if someone else fronts and we aren't in the belt, we have to put it back on whenever they're comfortable

                                OctaviaSunwilds and i can only do so many in a day

                                approximately how many of these tasks do you get in a day, or in other words, what is the maximum number of points you can get?
                                I admit, this is a very interesting system

                                    Angelina it depends on what can be done but usually around 5-8

                                    idk if my roomate just never considered that part or if it was intentional, but we've been trying this system since the start of october and i only have 87 points lol

                                        OctaviaSunwilds and i only have 87 points lol

                                        but then you have actually collected all possible points, haven't you? otherwise you would have to be able to collect over 10 to get a release on the 9th day already

                                            Angelina no i can redo chores, some of the things are just as simple as doing the washing or dishwasher. its just an issue of i can only so that so many times in a day so i dont get a lot of points from it