Angelina I don't know why it wasn't such a big step then I had expected 2-3 years ago. I don't really have a valid explanation.
For me it is something completely different. I know I am able to do it, so why not? I think maybe it has to do with how I was raised. My mother is a very strong and happy person and I have known about her situation for many many years now. I don't know. Maybe because of this, I am more open to it.