Ines theres alot about me you and everyone here doesnt know of course because my information is only so limited. snd im not that great at explaning things but its no secret that my life hasn tbeen great i know that but my friendship isnt really built on playing games its just that playing games is our only real way of spending time together via online. i met them awhile ago and before that my life was really a lot worse i was way more depressed and ive been to counseling before and ive been on medications for it and it doesnt work for me for whatever reason. what has worked though is me being with my friend and me wanting to live with them its given me hope for once about the future and i know it sounds wrong or weird but i promise i really dont see myself being happy any other way. ive had bfs and i dont really desire sex with anyone. im content with myself and i just kinda hate the current state of the world and how everything is so corrupt and its laways about money and people literally die so some person behind the scenes nobody knows about can get a paycheckt ehy already have 50000 of. i hate all fo it this entire world is terrible and they do everythign to make it harder for the people just wanting to live normal lives. i always think about how shit everything is for people all over the place and it just ruins any motivation i have for wanting to do anything.
i had planned already not to be of existence when i was 18-20ish so that once i became a real adult and life got really hard i wouldnt have to deal with it. but my friend is really the only thing thats given me enough motivation to push through that theyve helped me though with a lot of past trauma and stuff that ive had and its made a tremendous impact on my life so i know 100% they are right for me and i will be happy because theyve done nothing but stay up all night for me to help me when im not feeling okay enough to sleep cuz of bad nightrmares or things that happen to me. i reall have tried medications before though and ive been to 2 different non school counselors. usualy the ones at my schools are not really serious about their job it feels like. when iwould go to the school one they half the time werent even available so i just sat in the office crying but im just trying to say that games isnt the foundation of this. its jsut that theyve made my life so much better for the sake of me and at first we didnt plan on living toigether and they were the same person back then too. my story though is of course real and my life isnt a joke but i 100% understand your concerns and doubts you may have or have had especially with this being the internet and you not knowing me at all. this "professional" help though makes me anxious to even think about. i dont wana go to a hospital thats not gonna help me i have different needs than some people im jsut really weird idk but i cant go there. i already wana move out so bad and i dont wana go to an even worse place where i cant even talk to my friend who i need. about the belts though i dont really know how i feel about that yet. i feel i want to just know how it would shape me and if it really would help me. i do masturbate quite a lot actually when i looked up how often people do and stuff. so i just wonder i guess if it could actually be a cause of me not being truly happy yet. sorry for the big message though and thank you everyone for replies and concerns.

  • Sin replied to this.

      vyktoryah I am not an expert and can't offer any help in your situation. But masturbating is not the cause of your problems. You might be using it as an escape, sure, but to me it appears it's your environment that is causing your unhappiness.

      There is one thing I would like to point out, and it's that your world now is very insular. It might seem impossible right now, but changing your environment is key to changing your mindset. This might take years, but believe me, that's not as long as it seems!

      I take it you have not experienced much outside of your bedroom, your school, family, town, whatever. The world is a much, much bigger place than you can possibly imagine. Travelling might be difficult now, but it won't stay that way forever. Have you ever wanted to see ummm... I don't know... the Pyramids? Machu Picchu? A beach in Costa Rica? A jungle in Laos? What about Australia?

      The point I want to make is that your current situation is not making you happy, so work towards changing it (however long that may take). Make a goal to be somewhere completely different in three years. Take a shit job in retail. Flip some burgers. Make a website. Learn how to mix drinks. All of these things will give you skills you can use later in life, almost anywhere in the world.

      Travelling won't solve all your problems, but at least it's something different. I don't mean a Contiki tour where you get drunk for two weeks. Save $15,000, take a plane to ____ and never look back. There is so much more to the world than what you know, and it's all yours to explore. Some of it sucks, some of it is fantastic, and much of it is just utterly bizarre. Life is always worth living. You just have to figure out where to look.

          Sin
          And you should travel to Europe. Visit our castle along river Rhein and see towns with longer history than anything in USA beside it is from the Native American.
          One of the biggest highlights from my Australian friend was a comment about an old house we passed. "Wow, that's older than my country is known".
          As @Sin wrote their are so many things outside worth to explore.

            Sin i actually do have an interest in going to japan to try some of the food there. ive really heard a lot of good stuff about that so i definitely could try that everything just seems so expensive lol but i definitely am and have been considering the possibility of traveling a little but i definitely dont mean to be negative i just dont find that stuff as fun or interesting. i dont really like the idea of flying and driving that far is a hassle and if not more dangerous than is the same as flying. but anyway yes i do wana go to japan for some nice food

                Avery well im going to be 16 on the 23rd of this month but why is it interesting?

                  vyktoryah Japan it is then! (Good choice). Did you know it's actually pretty easy to get a job teaching English in Japan? Let's aim to spend your 20th birthday in Kyoto. 😀 You could do this...
                  https://www.lonelyplanet.com/articles/hiking-the-kumano-kodo-japans-ancient-pilgrimage-route
                  Or go to an onsen with snow monkeys! Or dress up in Akihabara!! Japan is nuts. Why not live there for a year?

                  vyktoryah i dont really like the idea of flying and driving that far is a hassle

                  Yeah I'd say driving to Japan might throw up some challenges... But that's all part of the fun I guess! 😋

                        vyktoryah im not sure what in specific youre asking, sorry

                        I was asking if your mom could have started using chastity belts much earlier since she was familiar with it.

                        vyktoryah henever she was back it was always when my parents were gone and shed brng her bf over and theyd have sex etc

                        Mom puts a belt on me to prevent such things when she is gone.

                              Ines

                              Do you think she may change her mind about chastity belt,too?Or probably never?

                              vyktoryah how to quote messages like you do

                              You can highlight the part you want to quote with your mouse,and a "quote" button would appear.

                              vyktoryah ive definitely discussed all those things with my friend though and i know the risks that come withmeeting up with online people and im usually really skeptical about it but the things theyve done for me and the positions theyv eput thsmelves in for me makes me feel they are genuine. nobody knows my plans yet though

                              Be careful,and I still think some of your friends and your parents should know it and know with who,and where,you would live.And if someone can check all is ok regularly,it would be better.

                              vyktoryah from what i know though my sisters do not know about the belts. i havent asked them about it and they havent seemed any different.

                              Not a good idea,it would be better if your parents discuss it a bit with them before,and not only tell them about it when it is delivered.

                              vyktoryah they also usually dirty up the house then leave it and didnt really care. theres always dishes around the place and anytime they are home its just a tornado of clothes and stuff.

                              So the new rules don't apply?

                              Angelina she should not find out during pregnancy

                              If her two sisters wear one,she could probably guess she would have to...Even if I agree with you.

                              Sin But masturbating is not the cause of your problems.

                              And it would not make her unhappy.

                              Sin Good choice

                              I agree.

                                                vyktoryah i just dont find that stuff as fun or interesting. i dont really like the idea of flying and driving that far is a hassle and if not more dangerous than is the same as flying. but anyway yes i do wana go to japan for some nice food

                                                you should not put yourself under pressure, you are still young and the best years are yet to come. do some research on the internet about what activities are possible, you will be surprised how many possibilities there are and maybe you will find something you would like to do. 🙂

                                                Vanessa Not a good idea,it would be better if your parents discuss it a bit with them before,and not only tell them about it when it is delivered.

                                                i agree, hiding it was never a good idea

                                                Vanessa If her two sisters wear one,she could probably guess she would have to...Even if I agree with you.

                                                yes, but with pregnant women you should be very sensitive

                                                        Vanessa Do you think she may change her mind about chastity belt,too?Or probably never?

                                                        It can be possible, but I do not see it as very probable, and even if she could end trying, for sure she will wear it in a different regime.

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                                                            vyktoryah I'd say it's the sisters should be belted and you should put this to your parents who are obviously supporting them still so they can make this a condition if they want. Why should it be you restricted due to your sisters' actions?

                                                                    hi sorry everyone about the late replies i got grounded but im back on now. also im new to this quoting thing so if i mess anything up with it sorry bout that. so far though from what i know today is gonna be the day me and my mom discuss whether its gonna include me with the belts or not because she got it already in the mail i believe. she just hasnt done anything with it and i think its "fitting" for my birthday idk but i feel i may not have to do it. shes not particuarly mean or anything like that

                                                                    Christine I was asking if your mom could have started using chastity belts much earlier since she was familiar with it.

                                                                    my mom definitely could have but her reason for having one was because a bad thing that happened to her and she used to live in a bad area. we however don't and havent since shes had kids.

                                                                    Sin Or go to an onsen with snow monkeys! Or dress up in Akihabara!! Japan is nuts. Why not live there for a year?

                                                                    that actually sounds RLY cool i didnt even know snow monkeys were a thing! i looked it up and thats rly neat i love how animals all got special species of eachother to deal with the different climates. i just feel its neat how it can be the same animal basically but entirely different too. that sounds pretty fun to me tbh

                                                                    Vanessa So the new rules don't apply?

                                                                    oh the rules do now but they didnt before. iwas just giving examples of WHY they are there now lol. because my sisters would just ruin everything around the house.

                                                                    sorry if i missed anyones reply just ask me again and ill get to it

                                                                            vyktoryah oh the rules do now but they didnt before. iwas just giving examples of WHY they are there now lol. because my sisters would just ruin everything around the house.

                                                                            sorry if i missed anyones reply just ask me again and ill get to it

                                                                            So do your sisters know the new rules now?

                                                                                vyktoryah

                                                                                thanks for the update 🙂

                                                                                You have a birthday soon?
                                                                                I hope the talk goes well for you and I'm eagerly waiting for the result 🙂

                                                                                    James So do your sisters know the new rules now?

                                                                                    yep they do know

                                                                                    Angelina You have a birthday soon?
                                                                                    I hope the talk goes well for you and I'm eagerly waiting for the result

                                                                                    thank you and yes! my birthday is today actually

                                                                                          Laura im not sure. i know im getting other things for my birthday of course but im not certain if its a threat atm or if its gonna happen. i should definitely know in a few hours though

                                                                                            so im back from talking with my mom and dad about everything. i went over pretty much everything ialready did with her sabout how its not really me doing the bad stuff etc. shes more so of the opinion that its a good thing but my dad sees it as a punishment i feel. so its mixed signals i guess. like she wants me to use it to better myself if i want to use it and my dad just wants me to quit watching porn and all tha stuff all together. but what we worked out in the end is that i wear it for one month starting tomorrow and then if i didnt give them any problems i can never use it again or i can keep it and use it forever if id like. my sisters are going to be belted too though. my pregnant one will be belted after her pregnancy and my other sister is being belted tomorrow with me. they dont know the news as of right now but tonight they will it could be any second really. im pretty nervous though im not gonna lie. this is a way better alternative than what could have happened for sure though. im not necessarily 1000% against it i just wish i could still masturbate but im PRETTY sure ill still be able to through it. ive got ideas that i think would work so this really isnt bad tbh. i feel it coulda gone way worse but this is definitely a preferable route for me.

                                                                                            saras happy birthday!

                                                                                            also thank you for wishing me happy birthday!