vyktoryah
I read you post and want add tome thought.
Your are in puberty with a lot of change in your body and mind.
but ive made attempts at my life in the past and im depressed currently and i cut myself sometimes too
You have some history with serious problems and you are depressive.
Both together is a lot to process which needs time and passion.
Did you ever met your online friend in real life?
If yes have you spent time together that you see how you really are and fit together?
Living together can be nice bad also a burden. Small thing can create big tension. Like who will doing the dishes, or let lie around the dirty cloth, or who is doing the shopping, cleaning, etc.
I will not say you should not but you should be sure it will work out.
Moving out is a big change in your life and you are in a big change already.
My advice do it step by step and not all in one. What looks like a solution could be a mistake in the end.
To get in contact with other peoples. You could join a club, or a dog that you walk several times a day, you could volunteer for a social project, etc.
vyktoryah being a parent definitely isnt easy lol theres no book or whatever to it andevery kid is different
You can find so many books for parenting and also for you questions, if what your father believe right or not.
vyktoryah thats how i feel about the porn thing but apparently when you orgasm it releases some hormones or something that are supposed to make you happy and then if you do that abunch you feel less happy overtime???
My experience with orgasm is it is a great relive and make me happy. If I have it too often it worn out. If you do it too often it can be addictive. You have to find out for yourself what is the right balance between helpfull and too much.
Some here have a problem with masturbation and find a solution in chastity. I think they work on the cause not on the problem but everyone has to decide for themselves what the best solution is.
The same apply to you.
Form an opinion on the various topics by consulting different sources of information. Learn your rights, find out what is important to you and what is not, what you like and what you don't like. Find your position and stand up for it.