Jen It's hard it's a crazy thing to think about
I'm going to see some of the Brigham Young girls Friday and Saturday in Florida. I'd love to know what the married ones did. Did they give themselves to their guys before they got married. I have read, but not actually been told, people look the other way if you're betrothed.
Jen Wow you go
That's just stress for me like locking the belt is a decision I make it and then I can relax but just being strong is like an fight with yourself. For when your actually doing stuff sure but alone or overnight...
I've made changes in my lifestyle to make it easier. Like showering in the locker room where I can't masturbate, sleeping with my door open so people can hear if I masturbate (I yell a lot). No drinking which weakens your resistance. stuff like that.
Jen Is right partner like - meaning life partner? I guess at least expecting it to become that?
Right. I think. I don't want to get married too young tho. Want to have a career started, a few $$$ in the bank, just be older and understand more about what I want. So if I have a strong feeling for someone soon I'll give in, I'm pretty sure.