confusion and pride at the same time

I would be embarrassed to ask, and I don't think they will make that offer to me voluntarily.

Amira

i would love to and the funny thing is that exactly 3 years ago today was the day my training ended and i have been living completely chastely ever since.

i can actually only understand your feelings up to a point, because i never had the choice, but i admire that you have such a mature view on the whole thing, because actually you are right, there are only these two options in the long run.

you started in november ', so you've done 3 months. maybe you can do it again, or extend it? talk to your mother again, that will help you

Amira tell me what to do and how to handle my feelings?

that depends - do you know what you want?

Amira I would like to know if anything changed in my wish and ability to touch myself and of course because I have the urge to touch myself.

See that's two reasons - which was it really?

So did you want to and the "know if anything changed" was just an excuse?
Our did you really worry you wouldn't be allowed?

You should probably stick to the occasional breaks. Like you'd know yourself if you thought staying chaste completely was important.
Like your description of Sunday - I'd feel disappointed for myself after that. You can want whatever you like in your life though so it's ok.

Well I guess we all know my feelings about these things... but I think getting to know your own body is really important. It's a beautiful experience and we should all indulge from time to time.

Staying chaste for a future partner is a completely seperate issue in my opinion. You should know how to work with them and guide them, otherwise that 'first time' that you're all waiting for is going to be a pretty awkward, anxiety-ridden, painful experience.

Three months is an amazing effort @Amira, you should be proud of yourself. Take time out and let your mind and body become one.
;-)

/That's my advice, but then I do go by the name "Sin", and I am free from the shackles of religion. So if playing is going to lead to feelings of guilt or failure, then maybe I'm not the best person to listen to!

Sin I think getting to know your own body is really important.

Yes !!!! including the bat cave

Amira
I was talking about ask a break for... that...

Sin otherwise that 'first time' that you're all waiting for is going to be a pretty awkward, anxiety-ridden, painful experience.

i agree with your post, except for this sentence. the first time is always a certain borderline experience. i experienced this with my girlfriend, but it is also a special experience because there are only a few moments between pain and happiness. i think the point in time is relatively irrelevant because at the beginning it is always something new, nobody is perfect and only with time you learn more and more how your partner reacts and what pleases your partner. but this can be before, but also after the wedding

Amira Do what feels right for you. That is the only important point.

Amira then happy belated chastity birthday, Angelina!

as i am a friend of sarcasm i try to enjoy it, thank you

Amira so I gave that decision away and we are back to the rule from November and will see how it's going to work out this time.

so in short, no more breaks for now? good luck, certainly hard but i understand why it might be better for you

Amira I do and sometimes that even involves listening to my Mom

Frankly speaking she can be right but is is not a general rule.
I didn't listening to my father and found out much later is was a mistake. It is a good way to take her advise in to account but not follow it blindly.

Amira I feel that it's more complicated to have breaks because this gives a bit of a feeling of becoming a lot of focused on the free days and I am not sure if I want that focus.

I'm not sure if this is your only issue with releases, because you also described unwanted feelings once you were locked up again, but if this is the major issue with you having breaks, why not leave it up to your mother to decide when you get breaks, and not tell you? Then you can't anticipate on them, but still occasionally enjoy free time.
(Of course your mother should use different durations between the breaks, so that you can't learn when to expect one.)

carg

i like the idea, this way @Amira wouldn't focus too much on the days when she gets breaks. also it would make the whole thing a bit exciting and playful if the breaks were a surprise.

Dont do it!

Why you want it?

If want be virgin - dont have sex (lot of girls/boys can do it without cb...)

etc

Kaja If want be virgin - dont have sex (lot of girls/boys can do it without cb...)

i don't think it has only something to do with sex. some girls also feel dirty when they satisfy themselves, this can be prevented or at least greatly reduced by the belt.

Angelina some girls also feel dirty when they satisfy themselves,

Most often this is due to culturally-instilled shame. That should be worked out, not be reinforced by making her wear steel panties.

Angelina some girls also feel dirty when they satisfy themselves, this can be prevented or at least greatly reduced by the belt.

Or they change their mindset.
There is nothing dirty or shameful about satisfying oneself.

Amira I feel the same way after a release. I am find that I am extra-sensitive for two days and then things start to calm down, but once I do calm down it is a very "deep" calm for at least a week. Then it starts to pick up again. So I look forward to the release and then to the deep calm. Maybe you have the same thing, but it sounds like you have difficulties with the calming down after the release.

It sounds like you enjoy the releases and you also want to have the control which means you need to limit it and this feels very difficult. Maybe you can try to find a release timing that gives you the best calm period. Having a longer time between releases might help. But I think 3 months is too long. Maybe try 3 weeks? What does your Mom say?

Aside, I had a release on Monday, so I am still in my calming-down phase