youdontknowme Hello, thank you for your sincere interest in my situation. Yes, I want to reduce my masturbation and it works very well. When I wear the device I actually no not feel like masturbating, I do not get hornier. Just erections are more fun. Sometimes I think about sex or consume picture material about it and that's enough for me.
I am not forced to wear it, more I want to wear it, however, until I have a secure cage (where I can't pull out) that fits comfortably, I will not give the keys to anyone.
Right now I am experimenting with dilators to stop me from pulling out of the cage. I was able to pull out of every one of the 10+ cages I bought. Unfortunately I have cut both dilators in half because the whole one caused blood in my urine. Now I am used to wearing a dilator so I need to reconnect them using the metal pieces taken from another cage's dilator. The trick of heating the silicone with a lighter works wonders; it shrinks and adapts to the size of the metal part connecting the tubes.
However, I have made a terrible mistake, trying to connect a metal dilator with a silicone one which caused it being too large (in diameter). So it got stuck in my urethra! I had to pull it out by force and now have a bleeding penis 🙁 But I guess that's just another failure on my chastity journey, I have learned from it.
Yes I am very glad for the relationship with my father. It has taken a lot of work, but I trust him. Yet, I am not sure whether I want to do it at all. I may have gotten cold feet, but I did not tell him that as I didn't want to burn the bridge I built. What is definitely good is that he knows where my keys are for an emergency and he knows that I am sometimes wearing chastity cages. We agreed that IF (a large if, not when) we do it that there is nothing sexual involved. In retrospect although I really felt ashamed for telling him at first, I am glad that I have done it. Further, in the beginning of the same conversation he asked me very gently (which is often difficult for him) if I wore "wearables under wearables". I said yes and stated that I wear sports bras in order to compress my lungs so I can breath more comfortably. Of course I did not deny that there is something sexual involved. It was very embarrassing, so much that I turned white and he had to give me sugar/dextrose. But now that the cat's out of the bag, I decided to talk about my wish to reduce masturbation and how chastity devices would assist in reaching this goal. He then proposed the "envelope idea". I hope this was a good idea to tell him that, but the conversation felt so trustful that I wanted to risk it.
If you have any questions about my situation, please feel free to ask.
